~name: justine
~nicknames: jaydee, jessica simpson, teeny (<3shorty<3 lol), jasmine, j.j.j., cocoa, jelly, head skank (of "the spanky skanks and the anti-skank"), bean
~age: 15
~location: roe die lynn
~school: 10th grade at keough
~hobbies: writing poetry, shopping, acting, cheering, singing, being justine-ish lol
~status: likin nik...
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
"testosterone"
bush
im a man
im real proud of my manhood
i like to smoke
ten thousands of cigarillos
eight ball
i cud climb any fountain
i never cry
i only bawl when im losing
and ive never been wrong
never been wrong
im looking so good
looking so good
got a big gold gun
got a big gold bullet
and i guess u cud say
im real full of it
im real full of it
im real straight
u wanna see my peccadillos
hot dog 7:30 every morning
and im big into war
big into war
big into war
i am a whore
i am a whore
got a big gold gun
i shave with gillette
shave with gillette
and im patting my back
patting my back
got a big gold bullet
no... i hav not gotten a sex change lol...
testosterone is wut was lacking from my day today...
welcome to the world of a girl who goes to an all girls school...
today was the first day of school... it was actually not that bad... gia and leanna r wicked nice (just like sarita said they wud be) and gia is just like me (once again... just like sarita said lol)... "we r the firey foursome... no wait... that sound like we hav sex with each other!" i got my eyes open for her u guys dont worry *wink*... we HAV to hav a sleep-over with the four of us... we wont hav a foursome tho (sorry guys lmao)...
i went to six flags sunday and my frekin purse got stolen off of the superman out of one of those cubbies... i was so livid. they stole my moms purse too (apparently there were like 45 people who got their shit stolen from that ride that day. my brother and i were running around with these college kids cuz the people who stole our bags answered one of the girls phones and said they were at superman... so we go over there and these three huge guys walk by us, look straight at me, and say "they came back" and start laughing and go on superman... i ran after them and screamed at them as they were gettin in line "excuse me!!!" and they all turn around and look at me and start walkin back... so i go "wut does 'they came back' mean?!?" and the dude who said it says "i wasnt talkin to u" and i just raise my eyebrows.. so he looks me up and down and goes "i can talk to u if ud like" so now i giv him this wicked rude look and go "hu... no thanx... listen i dont mean to be a bitch but my purse was stolen off of this ride and the people who stole it said they were here" he was like "oh..." and i go "basically... u said the wrong thing, to the wrong person, at the wrong time" and i turn and walk away... one of the college guys i was walkin around with turns to my brother and goes "wow... shes soo tiny but i definately thought she was about to take down those three black guys herself..." lol! we never ended up getting our stuff back... which is dick... i had my poetry book in it... at least $200 worth of make-up (it was practically all dessert, stila, and avon... that adds up dammit) and i had all my friends' phone numbers and shit. but the suckiest thing was my moms keys and cell phone were in her purse... not to mention all her freakin cash... they were answering her cell phone so i called my dad on my brothers phone to see if theres ne way he cud track it (i mean... he can track all of my calls and texts and hes probably even readin this now... i thought there must be a way) but of course... i got yelled at... please... somebody tell me how that works! and we had to wait in the parking lot forEVER so the aaa dude cud come and make us a $150 key... thank God my brother had cash on him!
well rachael went into the studio the other day to record that song we wrote... i guess her band liked it cuz now im her writer... they want me to come into the studio friday... tomorro im goin over rachiis after school so we can work on songs... friday i hav a day off and ill be goin to the studio with her around 6ish... im so xcited... im so glad they freakin liked it!!
i miss nik... i wanna see him... like... now...
ugh... i better read the last chapter of this book for school. nobody in my class has read ne books but me... wuts wrong with me? ...o boy things hav changed huh? (lsa people kno wut im talkin bout)
*kisses*
<3teeny
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
"tangled up in me"
skye sweetnam
u wanna kno more, more, more about me
gotta kno <--[reverse phsychology]
im the reason y u cant get to sleep
im the girl u never get just quite wut u see
hey! hey! hey!
cud u see i want u by the way i push u away, yah!
dont judge me tomorrow by the way im acting today
mix the words up with the actions do it all for ur reaction, yah!
hey! hey!
get tangled up in me
u think that u kno me
u think that im only
wen everything i do is only to get tangled up in u
u wanna kno more, more, more about me
im the girl that's sweeping u off ur feet
hey! hey! hey!
cud u see i want u by the way i push u away, yah!
dont judge me tomorrow by the way im acting today
mix the words up with the actions do it all for ur reaction, yah!
hey! hey!
get tangled up in me
eh... i cant sleep... and this song is stuck in my head...
im in all tenth grade classes at keough... like offically... finally God dammit! but that means i gotta read 3 books... get all my school books... finish with the dying my hair back to its natural brown-ness... get a nice relaxing facial... hav a sleep-over with rach to rite songs... go to the movies with kevin... and make sure cindy is done hemming my skirts... all before freakin TUESDAY... as in next tuesday... as in the 24th... which is my first day of school... how gross is that???? that means im probably not gonna be able to sams party (monday the 23rd)... and thats dick!!
fun rushed times with rachael and her sister jesse... leathaaa! ...o boy... chink place. random french fry craving lmao... "as of rte now im cutting down on salt..." ::stuffs frenh fries with extra salt in mouth and licks fingers:: "ok... now" lmco! and they got to see athena!!!
athena is the new kitten my mommy bought for me... shes soooooooo cute!!! she fits in one of my hands its adorable! the dude at thepet stoe said shes a girl... but my mom seems to think shes a boy (just cuz she likes to be difficult) so i decided if by chance wen we take her to the vet and they say shes a he... athenas new name is gonna be ashton! lol ocd child!
rach told me that niks afraid hes never gonna see me... cuz we havent since long island... and God i miss him! geez i dont even care how, where, or wen... but i sooo want to see him like... now...
tomorro my mommy is doin mine and rachaels hair... and im gonna show rach some of my poems and the ideas i had for her song (not "pink cargo pants" sorry lmco)... we both get to get facials... thank God... im randomly breakin out on my forehead so it was like... just in time!
im gonna try to fall asleep... i need to get used to goin to bed early and wakin up even earlier... and soon... or im gonna be sooo damn bitchy at school lol...
goodnight!
*kisses*
<3justine
Posted at 02:42 am by cheerinjdv
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
heyy guys n gals...
im not xactly in a good mood so im not even gonna write nethin in case i say sumthin that im gonna regret lmao...
i was just talkin to nina and she had this pictures from my pool party last summer... theres one with scott, calan, and chris c in ula skirts and shell bras... but her butt-pot (yess i kno... great vocab... but theres no other way to describe him) brother said its too faggy to touch his scanner...
alright here they r...
^ this one is laura, jackie, and a bit of courtneys head in the pool lmao...
^ sarah l and nicole lookin at calan whos doin sumthin weird with a towel... jeremys just stickin his head in lmao...
^ thats brett and i... lol it kinda looks like we r tanning our feet... w/e lol...
^ the band... consisting of ewik (right), jeremy (left), and josh (drummer)
^ and of course... wuts band without groupies? laura... maybe nina... or jackie... or idk even kno... sum brunette in the middle... and courtney
^ for some reason... this was the inspiration for all the girls there (well most of us) to jump on that little float and try to swim across the pool and back... another float came into the mix and it became a race... the guys just stood there like "whatthefuck r they DOIN???"
lol fun times... geez i need to hav another one before school starts cuz that was fun... the sleep over after was awesum too (mike and steeeeve!!! doughnuts! and 4am breakfast followed by 6am walks...) eh i gotta do this shit again sometime...
later
<3jd
ps... sry rachael... i sent u am IM xplainin my bitchy-ness last night... lol ILY
Posted at 09:19 pm by cheerinjdv
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
"one day"
simple plan
sometimes this house feels like a prison
that i just cant <--leave <--behind
there's so many rules
i gotta follow
cuz u cant let go
i dont wanna hear it
and i just can't believe it
all the stupid things u say
but one day
i wont take this nemore
one day
i'll be old enough
to do wut i want to
and i wont hav to run away
and u wont be there to say im not allowed to
one day
sometimes i wonder if u kno me
or if u just pretend to care
so tell me r u on a mission
to bring me down?
i dont wanna hear it
and i just cant believe it
all the stupid things u say
but one day
i wont take this nemore
one day
i'll be old enough
to do wut i want to
and i wont hav to run away
and u wont be there to say im not allowed to
one day
go away
dont look at me
cuz we're not the same
and u cant do nothin
u can say
that it's not okay
but im not afraid
and u cant do nothin
alrighty
dad and lori r fighting again. u kno, my dad promises over and over again that theyll never fight again... but its pretty damn apparent that they r goin to keep fighting... i hate to say it but maybe the best thing for everybody is that they just go thru with this freakin divorce... im so sick of all of this its too complicated... y cant shit be simple?
i wanna talk to my dad so bad about everything... about wut i think about the divorce... about nik... about my social life (or lack there-of) but wen do i get the chance... its either they r all lovey dovey and i dont wanna disturb them or they r about to rip each others heads off and i refuse to get near them lol... ugh my dad has still yet to pull me aside alone neways soo i guess me not talkin to him isnt that bad...
w/e... life sucks then u die rite?
ew... im goin to bed early tonight i dont feel like bein awake nemore...
<3me
ps: ily kevin... thanks for always bein there for me...
Posted at 09:56 pm by cheerinjdv
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"autobiography"
ashlee simpson
i hear u talkin
well, its my turn now
im talkin back
look in my eyes
so u can see just where im at
i walked a thousand miles to find one river of peace
id walk a million more to find wut this shit means
got stains on my t-shirt
and im the biggest flirt
rite now im solo
but that will be changin eventually, oh
got bruises on my heart
and sometimes i get dark
if u want my auto, want my autobiography
baby, just ask me
im a bad ass girl in this messed up world
im a sexy girl in this crazy world
im a simple girl in a c o m p l e x world
a nasty girl, u wanna get with me?
u wanna mess with me?
got stains on my t-shirt
and im the biggest flirt
rite now im solo
but that will be changin eventually, oh
i laugh more than i cry
u piss me off, good-bye
got bruises on my heart
and sometimes i get dark
if u want my auto, want my autobiography
baby, just ask me
i painted loris room last night... my arms r sooooooooooooo sore from rolling... owowow. i shouldnt complain... tino cut off the tip of his thumb (ew lol).
i get to see rach tomorro (finallly lmco)... eh... fun times...
im tired... i woke up at 12:30 today cuz ima lazy ass... i feel like my day is wasted!
im gonna go to biancas gymnastics class later on... then we will probably go to wendys... and i wonder y im gainin weight lol...
*kisses*
<3teeny
Posted at 02:12 pm by cheerinjdv
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
"love me for me"
ashlee simpson
im mixed up, so wut
yea u want me, so ur messed up too
i love u, i hate u
if u only knew wut ive been thru
my head is spinnin
but my heart is in the rite place
sometimes it has to hav itself a little earthquake
here i am
as perfect as im ever gonna b
ull see
love me for me
stick around
im not the kinda girl u wanna leave
ull see
eh... i love this song soo much...
ive talked to kevin a few times... i havent talked to him in a while i miss him soo much. lol im back in his profile... even tho his jealous girlfriend got mad. i forgot how well we kno each other lmao... we were on the phone for hours just talkin away... even if things didnt make sense it doesnt matter lol. i love how i can b myself 100% and kno hes not judgin me at all... we gotta go see that movie bAby!! lmCo!
rach... u make me wanna LaLA!!!! *wink* lmco... u and manda r the bestest ever... "i dont hav one of those.."...scooch ur cooooooch!... haha profile*errrrr!... lol ily!!! i hope this whole thing with ant straigtens out!!! i miss u soo much... i cant wait to see u GORGEOUS! friday nights a'comin!
i almost never get to talk to nik... i miss seeing him... n kissin him... n cuddling with him (its better than..........) ... *sigh*...lol ur pictures r gonna be hott babe... even if they r a waste of time... no hat PWEEZ! ew i cant believe ur a red sox fan... how cud u? i cant wait to see u!!
[ i wudnt b able to sleep tonight if i didnt say hi to mark (ily soooo much we GOTTA get together my gay buddy!!), tommy, boob, lincoln (steve madden, baby! lmao), and tim... ]
alright... ive been living at loris... the whole lori and dad thing is kinda a roller coaster... i dont think nebody knos wut the hell is goin on with them... i dont even kno wut i want to happen nemore. i just wanna hav my daddy back. he promised me that if i moved back in things wudnt change and he and i wud still be just as close.. and we cud still hav 1 on 1 time and w ut - e v e r. guess wut... none of that has happened... he got mad at me cuz i havent talked to him bout me still talkin to nik... but... uhmmm... wen do i hav time to talk to him? wen the kids go to bed so we can b alone? o yea thats rite... hes talks to lori... then breifly says bye to me and leaves. i understand hes really wrapped up in this and its difficult... but how can he get mad at me for not makin an attept to sit him down and talk to him if he hasnt made the attept to talk to me alone either?
my moms been... bein mom.. wrapped up in her boyfriend and herself... wutever her and i hav actually been getting along well so im not gonna complain. im goin to six flags with her and louie sunday... i was supposed to go monday but i had a freakin shin splint... ha wutta dork... thats just my luck...
alright im about to fall over... im goin to bed... goodnight!
*kisses*
<3ma'am
Posted at 02:13 am by cheerinjdv
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Saturday, July 31, 2004
"a few small bruises"
maria mena
out here on the ledge
im not far away from stepping off
ive finally picked out my cloud
it's the one over there
surrounded by all that air
u reached out ur hand
and said i understand
so y not come down
well, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
oh, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
thank u for asking
im so glad we had this moment here
i kno they think im crazy
but everything i am
is everything i was taught to b
and u reached out ur hand
and said i understand
so y not come down
oh, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
oh, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
ooh
and as u read my words out loud
make me sound genius
make me sound special
and maybe i'll come down
ah ah oh
well, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
well, except for a few small bruises, cuts, and scars... well im fine
Posted at 10:08 pm by cheerinjdv
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Friday, July 30, 2004
Posted at 11:24 pm by cheerinjdv
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
i
am
so
grounded!
my punishment is no communicating with nebody outside of the family in ne way, shape, or form.
and nobody... and i mean NOBODY call my cell... the parentals r holding the poor thing captive.
oh and boys 18 and over that may hav talked to me in neway over the past few weeks... my dad is livid... think of ne conversations we had... if my dad wudnt hav liked them... chances r he doesnt like u rite now... lol im just warning u...
o boy...
<3 teeny (that's rite!)
Posted at 09:09 pm by cheerinjdv
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004
"memory"
sugarcult
this may never start
i'll tear us apart
can i be ur enemy?
losing half a year
waiting for u here
id be ur nething
so get back, back, back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i cud never feel this way
so get back, back, back to the disaster
my hearts beating faster
holdin on to feel the same
this may never start
tearing out my heart
id be ur memory
lost ur sense of fear
feelings disappear
can i be ur memory?
ugh im tired and i hav to go to work tomorro (ew)
i got to see rach at the feast after i hung out with sam for a bit... yayy!! lol i missed her so much... she slept over after. we ran into a lot of ppl at the feast (GLEN BABY lmao) including ant and chris... who were both drunk but w/e... chris was still hott lol... apparently even tho chris was drunk and doesnt remember much he says he remembers that i looked gorgeous... gotta love the ego boost lmao...
chris... u kno im rite babe...
i had a kinda interestin talk with rach about nik that night... eck... 3 more... then im soo done lol
i talked to tommy for the first time since i like practically drunk dialed him lmao... we'll see babe...
alright im gonna go cuz im too tired to think... plus i keep on gettin distracted (gotta love meatwad lmao)
*hugs n kisses*
<3me
Posted at 12:30 am by cheerinjdv
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